A Hiatus From Writing
After a long break
and a career change, I have come back to writing. Looking over old ideas, old
research and old posts has sparked something of a philosophical conversation in
my mind. Namely, why do I do what I do? Why do I care about the topics I write
about and, more importantly, why would anybody else?
Generally speaking,
when I have talked to people about the kinds of historical research that I have
been involved in and about the topics I write about, particularly my more
recent work, they react with a sort of macabre interest. It tends to come under
the umbrella of the true-crime genre. It's Jack the Ripper, it's Victorian
London, it's something shadowy and gruesome. Understandably, true crime has a
huge following in the UK and while I do enjoy it, I have never viewed any of my own work in that light. I have
always been clear in my mind that my work is history work. At this point, I
feel I need to make it clear that I do not view true-crime writing as something
inferior to historical writing. That is not what I'm suggesting. What I'm
saying is that the two are distinct. Yes, there might be some cross-over but,
fundamentally, they both set out to achieve very different goals.
So what are my
goals, then, if I'm a historian and not under the umbrella of true crime or
any other genre? This is something that I've been pondering a lot. Often, our
interests take us on all kinds of magical mystery tours. We start on one topic,
only to find that we finish in a place or places that are very different and
unexpected. I often tell people that I am interested in lots of different
topics because, for the longest time, that's what I believed. It's only recently
that I have started to reframe these ideas about what drives my interest in the
past.
Well, I say that I
have lots of different interests. That's not strictly true. Gender,
specifically women's history, is the common thread that runs through everything
I have ever worked on - at school, at college, at university, as a
professional. I am interested in what it meant to be a woman 200 years ago or
500 years ago, in this country or that one, because I am interested in what it
means to be a woman now. How have we
actually come to be who we are today? That's what has always driven me
intellectually.
On reflection,
though, the commonality runs deeper than that. The other two areas of focus for
me - crime and health - are equally connected and intertwined. If we take my
book about Christiana Edmunds as an example, I was not drawn to her because of
her scandalous crimes. For me, she was a living embodiment of how femininity,
crime and health were interconnected. They were three threads in the same piece
of fabric. Expectations of how she ought to behave as a woman may not have only
caused the deterioration in both physical and mental health, as well as her
crime spree, but they were then used to form the basis of the moral and legal
judgements made against her. So not only were these standards a potential
cause, but they were also an effect. I have seen the same interplay between gender,
health and crime over and over again when studying the 19th century. What's
more, I have found that expectations of femininity go hand-in-hand with
expectations of sexuality -and this has not changed in the past two centuries.
When I reflect on my
goals in writing Christiana's story, among the many, many others, it was never really about establishing innocence
or guilt, or about unearthing strange cases from the past, or making the hairs on
the back of your neck stand up. It has always been about documenting this
interplay, even if I wasn't always conscious of it (until recently). This is
why I have never considered myself to be a true-crime writer or a writer of
any other genre. I don't care so much about the crime or the illness, I care
about society's response to it. My goal has been to document it, to see its
evolution, to see how it is influenced by other factors, like class and age.
In terms of the
history, then, what is the point of establishing and studying interplays, as I
do? Well, for a start, it's not the history you were taught at school. It's
true diversity! It's shedding light on centuries of darkness. Secondly, it's
about being true to the concept of herstory. It's about accepting that
traditional narratives of the past are male and rarely give women of the past a
voice.